I supposed instead of always telling young people like me to spend time going out, travelling, making mistakes
I think we sometimes need to tell them to spend time in hospitals, just because
I know it sounds contradictory, but please, just hear me out
I spent a lot of times in hospitals as a child, my late teen, and early adult
It was first for me, going to a doctor who constantly tell me I am going to die soon, every other month
In reality, I just began living at the age of 20s, taking wobbly steps in the world, like babies do. So, I guess even doctors don’t always have the answer
As I grew, taking the major I have no idea of, getting stories about drugs and patients, I imagined how both cold and filled of hopefull prayers hospitals are: “Please, life. Give me something, anything.”
Quite later, when I go for other people, I realised that hospitals offered so much more to learn from
Mostly, about life
About how fragile it is
About how mortal we are, dying sacks of meat in any second
About life is that unpredictable; for instance one might picture they’d die saving the world, but mortifyingly die due to chocking of meatballs
And if at this point you might infer I am trying to say that living at all is meaningless,
You are mistaken, my friend
Going to hospitals taught me about humility, realisation, encouragement
That if we die eventually, in the most unpredictable circumstances there will be, why living someone else’s life? I will live my life, to its utmost
May 11th, 2021
After Preparing Another Health Document, in the Hospital, Leaning by Emergency Unit Door
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